I hate to start things off on a serious note so I posted the intro first, however, this matter has been very prominent in my mind. M (my husband) and I have been trying to get pregnant for over a year now. We tried naturally for about 6 months and then my doctor put me on Metformin and we tried that for about 6 months. This month marks 12 months of trying. 12 months of trying with no baby is the definition of infertility. This has been playing on my mind pretty hard and slowly killing me inside. While everybody around me is getting pregnant or having babies, I can't do it.
One of the hardest parts is that I don't have anybody to talk to about it that understands. Almost none of my friends planned their pregnancies, they just happened. Even the ones that did plan them, were able to conceive immediately. My family is another matter altogether too. My mother tries to be a support but she has no idea what it's like to not be able to get pregnant. None of her children were planned. They all just happened because she's nice and fertile.
I know that M really wants this but I don't think that it feels like a failure to him. For a woman, not being able to get pregnant is like a man being born without testicles or something. I don't know exactly what to equate it to but it makes me feel like I'm not a woman.
Anyway, so we went into the doctor and he put me on some things to help. He thinks that I'm not ovulating because of how irregular my girl time is so he put me on Provera to help regulate me and Clomid to make me ovulate. It's a low dosage of the Clomid for now but I have to go back in on the 25th day of my cycle so they can measure the progesterone and see if I did ovulate. If I did, maybe we'll be pregnant? If I didn't, they up the dose. I've read a lot of success stories about this stuff so I hope it works!
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