8 weeks, 4 days

Everything is going great.  I think it may actually be a little too great for me though.  I don't even feel pregnant.  I don't have morning sickness and I think it makes me feel like the whole thing isn't real.  I still have slightly sore breasts that is getting larger and if I don't eat every 3 hours or so, I feel like is been days.  Other than that, there's nothing to remind me every day that there is a life inside of me.  After trying to conceive for what seems like forever, it just doesn't feel real yet!

On a different note, we found out what was causing the bleeding (adult content warning).  Clitoral orgasms.  No, really.  Sex is fine but I can't have the 'other' orgasm because it makes me bleed.  I'm happy that we know what caused it but ay the same time, wtf?  I don't have morning sickness but... This.  Speaking of some strange side effects of pregnancy, last week, I had 'swollen tastebuds'.  Ever hear of that before?  Me neither!

My fist actual appointment is tomorrow.  It's my intake and I'm super nervous.  I always feel like we're going to go in for an ultrasound at some point and there will just be nothing.  It scares the crap or of me. 

Oh!  We also told M's family and made it public on facebook!  It may make things a little more intimidating but it's nice to have everybody know!  I wanted to shout it from the rooftops from day one.

7 weeks update!

We got the ultrasound today.  Everything is great!  There was a little bit of blood in there but it is nowhere near the gestational sack so that means that, even though I may bleed a little more, I should be safe.  :)  The ultrasound went so well that the nurse said that we don't need to do blood tests.  We made appointments for 8 weeks and 12 weeks (actually 11 because of Thanksgiving) and I am super psyched about it!

We saw the heartbeat!  124 beats per minute!  It was so amazing!  They said that it will raise and then lower again over the next 7 and a half months. 

We told my dad today too.  He was pretty happy about it and congratulated us.  We still haven't told anybody in M's family so I feel kind of bad that almost my whole family knows!  I'd really like to go all out when we tell his dad but that may not happen as it's really hard to get his dad and step-mom in the same place at the same time.  :(  Super excited to tell them though!

Things are good!  Still no morning sickness!  Replace it with nasal congestion, headaches, sore breasts, fatigue, having to pee every 30 seconds and SUPER strange dreams. 

5 weeks, 4 days - 7 weeks

At 5 weeks, 4 days (9/9/2012), M and I left on a road trip for vacation.  We had a long drive ahead of us and I was making sure to get plenty of water and walk around a lot when we stopped for gas.  2 hours before we reached our destination, we stopped, I went to the bathroom and I realized that I was bleeding.  I was instructed by the answering service of my OB office to go straight to the nearest emergency room so that's what we did.  When we got there, it was a dingy place with bugs crawling on the floor and a full waiting room.  We waited and got in within an hour or so.  The took a urine sample, a blood sample and did an ultrasound.  M got to see the ultrasound but I didn't.  Then they told us that if there was anything abnormal or anything that we should be concerned about, they would call us.  We didn't hear from them our entire vacation so we assumed that everything was fine. 

On our way home, I had some extreme cramping and talked to my nurse.  She said that it can be normal sometimes but she didn't recommend me to stop at the ER again because I had an appointment as soon as I got back.  Then, we decided to cancel the appointment so we could wait for the out of state records from vacation to come in.

We got back in town on Monday, September 15th and my OB office had to try for 2 days before they finally got my results sent over from the out of state ER.  The nurse called this morning and informed me that I was very 'in the gray' and that we need to check if everything is okay.  My HCG was at a good level at 12,000.  On the ultrasound, there was a gestational sack but there was no 'fetal pole'.  According to the nurse, this could mean one of many things;
1. It isn't a viable pregnancy,
2. I had a miscarriage,
3. Everything is fine and it was just too early to see one. 
I now have an appointment today at 1:pm for an ultrasound.  They should see fetal heart tones.  If they don't see fetal heart tones, it means one of the first two things.  I really don't want to think about it right now but I'm really nervous.

4 weeks, 5 days: The nurse says everything seems normal.

It is so hard not to tell everybody that I know!  We've decided to wait until the first ultrasound (which we were assuming would be at the end of the first trimester) but when I talked to the nurse today, she scheduled an ultrasound for my 7 week appointment on October 15th.  I want to make sure that everything is normal.  I'm just wondering, if it's all normal at 7 weeks, should I start telling people?  It'll be my first prenatal appointment and I'm super nervous and I don't really know what to expect.  I've read a lot of things that say that I'll have options of what testing to do and there are so many tests!  I've got a lot of research to do before then!

It seems like there is something every day.  This is my first pregnancy so things are pretty confusing and I don't really know what to expect.  Sometimes, I have a lot of symptoms.  other times, I don't even feel pregnant.  When am I supposed to feel pregnant?  It may sound like a strange question but I'm not asking for morning sickness or anything.  I'm assuming it may feel more real after the first ultrasound.  

We are leaving in a week to go on a week long vacation so I'm a little nervous.  We're going to California and going to hit up Disneyland.  We bought the tickets before we knew we were pregnant but I still think it will be just as fun (minus some rides).  The nurse at my OB's office assured me that I could call in any time I have questions and they would return my calls and answer my questions right away.  It feels good to finally have a good Doctor.  My old OB/GYN wouldn't have even done any of the blood tests that this doctor has done for me.

I'll tell you one thing though, I have been researching birthing options and I have decided that an episiotomy is the most horrifying thing I have ever seen.  I am intending on doing a lot of perineum stretches way later on so I can drop the chances of having to get one.  I've also been thinking about a midwife or Doula.  I am pretty positive that I would like to do everything naturally and I've been reading some statistics about the low instances of episiotomies, c-sections and all kinds of other things.  This is one of those times when it would be great if everybody knew so I could just facebook the question or something.